Several updates -
My daughter's letters came to an abrupt halt after I wrote and expressed my concerns about her requests for money, etc (see last post)... She called a few days ago, and told me she was now a trustee and is keeping busy doing laundry, cleaning, etc... again, I don't know much about County Jails, but she seemed happy. She said my latest letter really got to her... yesterday I got another letter reiterating what she told me, and it was a much easier letter to digest than those she has sent before... She seems to be thinking about things as she should - admits she is ashamed of how she has been and what she has done - that when on Heroin she just didn't care... Hope this thought process and communication continues.
The babe is doing fine - the visits with his other grandparents have resumed - I miss him and worry about him when he is not here. Since he goes to a day care when he is with them, he often comes back with colds and such... It just seems unfair to him, but, what can I do? He is getting older and there is more and more of an adjustment needed when he comes home. He will be 7 Months old soon. I do have a short video of him laughing that I'll post when I can figure out how - he thinks it's hilarious when someone sneezes - and can play peek-a-boo for HOURS - lol
Annette honored me with a "Blog Love Award":
Thank you! The rules are that I now bestow the award on fellow bloggers that I admire - so many to choose from! And, of course, all that Annette has already awarded I agree with - So, here goes:
Here are the rules:* When you receive the Blog Love Award, you should place the logo on your blog proudly!
* Link to the blogger that awarded you the love.
* Nominate your friends and bloggers you read regularly, as many as you like.
* Finally, let them know you’ve nominated them to receive the award...
- Fractal Mom
- A Room of Mama's Own
- Mother Of a Drug Addict
- This Can't be it
- Enabling Love
- An Addict in our Son's bedroom
- My Daughter's Addiction
- Wearin' My Heart on My Sleeve
- Isle Dance
- The Junky's Wife
- Anonymous Adventures in Real Life
- Journey into the Past
- This Blessed Mess
- Zen of Motherhood
- How Is My Son?
Never forget that our words and thoughts and angst are a valuable out reach to others - when I look at some of the google results that lead to my blog, I am reminded so much of MY OWN desperate search for info before I came across our wonderful group of parents of addicts bloggers...
Yesterday I got a message from another mom who found my blog, and links from mine to others - I encourage her to start her own blog, and I hope she will... and so I am "pre-awarding" her a Blog Love Award Also:
"Hi Athena, I am sorry I didn't see this message sooner. I am new to this website and I don't know where everything is. I went to your Blogspot. You are amazing!! I cried reading your stories about your daughter. I am trying my hardest to keep my chin up but it sure is hard. I lost my dad on 12/31/08 after many many years of suffering from COPD. He lived next door to me with my mom. He had Hospice since October. It took a great deal out of me as I was over there all the time helping my mom. On 2/4/09 I learned of my sons recent relapse with heroin. On 2/6/09, my father-in-law passed away from a heart attack as I sat in a doctors office with about 10 junkies while trying to help my son. This is his 3rd relapse and his last chance with me. I love him so much but I can't take it again. He knows this is his last chance. The next time he is out of the house, which sickens me to death to think about. I know I have to be tough, but it just breaks my heart. My husband won't deal with it anymore. He is totally fed up. I am looking for a local support group as I need help in dealing with this. Thank you for leading me to another website where I don't feel so all alone. I will be in touch again soon.... Sinaj"
Also, Annette, Bless her heart - played the letter game and offered anyone interested, a letter. I took her up on it and my letter is D. If anyone else would like to play let me know and I will pass a letter your way. "D" - That will be my next post :-)
If you get a chance - check out this video - I think it's lovely: