Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Another Birthday, Continued Hope and Thanks-Giving

Yesterday, my daughter turned 22. Amazing. I am Thankful that she is still alive, and am grateful for a chance to see her today after so many months of "not knowing" - It is a gift to me each time I can hold her and tell her that I love her, and that I believe in her strength.

She seems to be at a fork in the road - she's been here before, yes - but for her birthday, as a gift, I am believing in her. While she was here she made a call to Nexus Recovery. They do not have a detox bed until possibly Wednesday, and a counselor will call her then. I pray she is still determined on Wednesday.

I also spoke with a kind soul, Doug Y.,  from the Dallas chapter of Heroin Anonymous; it just means so much when you get a call from somewhere like that and they are "real" - I felt the care in his voice, and it meant so much.

And then I read Cassie's blog and I cried.


I am doing this mobile, so not sure if I can add recent pictures of Landon until tomorrow... But I do have a video to share from last week. He is healthy and happy and a joy to all. I have recently seen Landon's "Sissy" Kaylee. She is staying with the other grandparents, and is healthy, sweet and sassy - much like her mother at that age (almost 2!) - She and Landon are very close and that is a joy to me.

I better go to bed - but on this special day I wanted to put forward some encouraging and loving words to my daughter. I hope you all are able to take the time this week to give thanks for the small gifts that surround us every day.

9 comments:

Cassie said...

I'm happy for you. You have a really great attitude about this whole thing. For me, it's over. I see you know to keep moving forward and being hopeful. I think that's all there is.

Athena said...

Some days are better than others - Birthdays especially remind me of all of the promise that exists, if only she could escape Heroin (and other bad decisions)

~Hugs

Athena said...

Cassie, I just read your blog post for Nov 21... And I hope everyone else will, too. If I could hug you really, I would

Barbara said...

Happy Birthday to your girl, my boy is turning 21 soon. I've been reading Cassie's blog too and I've looked at every day differently since "meeting" her.

I can't believe how big Landon has gotten, he's adorable.

Lou said...

Athena, your family and the kids are often on my mind. I'm grateful they have caring, loving people in their lives.
I hope your daughter makes a positive choice. We know someday she will regret having missed this time with her children. But then we all have regrets..and we all have the chance to make amends for them each new day.

Love, Lou

Athena said...

Indeed, Lou... Today I will not regret. My daughter spent the day here with us. She's a bit "homeless" right now. Which is possibly harder emotionally on me than on her. She has burned a lot of bridges, and there was some akwardness, but I believe she is serious about getting clean. ("Boyfriend" got arrested again yesterday, and so he'll be forced to detox and do some time) - It was arranged for the weekend she will stay at her dad's. She'll go to Nexus in person Monday, and we discussed alternatives if they still don't have room.

I just saw this text from her: "I made it ok. I love u so much! Thank u 4everything. I'll call u 2morow. Glad we got to visit n especially enjoyed our talk"

Yes. Today will carry us both, I hope. (Cassie, she also read your 11/21 blog post about Duane.)

Jenn June said...

I just found your blog. I feel so befuddled as to what to say here. I read the changeling poem and I cannot stop crying. I'm sorry. I just wanted to let you know that I'm here and I'm your newest follower and your strength in the face of this amazes me.

Athena said...

Welcome Jenn.

Pat Moore Foundation | Addiction Guest Blog said...

Any updates on how your daughter is doing? I hope that a bed opened up for her at Nexus Recovery.

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